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My name is Diana Flammer. In my teenage years I found myself lost in a whirlwind of depression, substance abuse, with a lack of direction. I realized one day that I didn’t know who I was, what I loved or what made me happy.

 

After a lot of self-searching I found myself doing what I loved. I went for everything I loved in full force.

 

The problem was, I lacked the skills necessary to make these goals successful. I ran faster than I had strength, which brought me to a nervous breakdown mid February 2012.

 

Unfortunately, I had a dream trip scheduled February 29th, to travel all over Europe and went, even though it probably was not the wisest decision.

 

Not only did the nervous breakdown hit me at a critical point, but the next two months solidified and exposed every area I had weakness and lacked skill. This rocked my world HARD.

 

I am not the same person I was before. I was so full of hope, faith and an abundance of enthusiasm. I have been searching for these treasures, I believe they are still in me somewhere.

 

Since this experience I have been scrambling for my mind to function. I’ve been able to take care of essentials, and have those bases covered, but when it came down to anything bigger than my daily takes, I wouldn’t touch it with a stick. I remember when I came back from my trip I said, “Forget learning Spanish, forget being an author, forget traveling the world, forget going into business and forget dreaming in general. If dreaming is this hard, I want nothing to do with it.” I shut the book of dreams I had opened in my mind. My soul died that day.

 

Love Dreamer Di

 

Challenge: Have you let your dreams die?

 

Word: Valentine