Saturday, May 26, 2012

Results of Change

Each day of being home, I realize how much I have changed. My interests are different, motives and ideas, changed. I'm starting to see how my trip has benefited me. I am now imbedded with new ideas and realities. I really like the results.

I feel like I'm more in line with my ultimate direction than ever before. I love the new things I am focusing on and the foundation I am building.

One thing I'm tapping into from the trip is:  I had caged myself, more than anything or anyone I faught against, for my freedom. What does freedom mean to you?

Everything I have learned is for my good and I am a stronger person today because of it.

Word of the day: Popcorn
Challenge: Be free mayne
Idea: Results are what counts

Keep it real,
Dreamer Di

Monday, May 14, 2012

Let the Wild Side Fly

I am finding that I have cared what people thought, way more then I thought I did. I am finding hidden ways that I have cared.

I am very observant. Being able to feel the energy in the room and then adapting myself to my surroundings. this is a positive quality, but I have been out of balance. I have worked so hard at not offending people, that I have not been my full witty self, and have suppressed some of the best parts of me.

I have put my wild side away for the past 4 years, because I didn't want to offended a stand by person or come off as "irresponsible, rowdy, uncontrollable etc.". So I had stopped pulling little pranks on my friends and family, stopped my dramatic reenactments, loud shouts of joy, outbursts of laughter and excitement, and a lot of things that made me, me. I realize that I only have to care what God thinks, and be in harmony with His plan for my life and be me!

I have just recently started to let this grow again.

Here is an example: Rosa(bff0, Natalee(Sister) and I floated the river in my boat for the first time this summer on May 5th. I have a couple inflatable row boats, compactable, so they can fit in the trunk of my Civic. Rosa decided she wanted to stand up in the boat. I challenged her to see how long she could stand, she accepted the challenge and held her stance. I then decided to kick her little hinny with my leg and sent her flinging forward, face first into the water. It was the funniest thing I had seen in a long time!!!

All three of us, including Rosa, and others around us, laughed HYSTERICALLY as Rosa, coughing up river water, pulled herself back into seated position. Moments like this make memories, right? haha

Oh and don't you worry, Rosa gets me back, which I like. She just scared the crap out of me a couple mins ago, and sending pure adrenaline streaming through my entire body. Moments like this remind you you're alive. Plus... it gives me an opportunity to retaliate. ;)

Let the fun and games begin again. ;) I forgot how much I love peoples reactions when something is out of the ordinary!

Challenge: Do something really dramatic today that makes someone, or a group of people laugh hysterically! Ex: Pretend to be Richard Simmons, and do a dance in the middle of Walmart. Full with facial expression, "I'm sexy and I know it", and attitude!!! Seriously! Wouldn't that be hilarious! ha Hope I hear about some of these funny moments!

Words of the day: Blue Cheese (Which by the way, I tried the most disgusting blue cheese in Ireland, the deli man, who offered for me to try it, laughed hysterically at my facial expression. I love that I could be a good story for him and his family later.. haha)

I wub you you wubbery people,
Dreamer Di

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Did she really tickle him?!

I have decided to get up off the ground. I am back in the swing of things. I listened to a recording with my family, about how our thoughts create our reality. I decided I was going to dig up some of my old habits and start working on my mind.

I have created a list of somethings I recite to myself each morning, made a health plan and priority list. This helps keep me balanced.I work best when I have something to work towards, and when I came home the last thing I wanted to do was work on anything! But yet again, the work is never over, and to be honest, I love to work. I just needed a break for a min.

This next season of my life is dedicated to fun and enjoying what I have. For in London I realized that I need to work on feeling more satisfied with what I accomplish and do. I am excited to have some fun and let my creative wild side run free for a while. For me, that could mean an entire day in nature, floating the river in my boat, writing music, chillin with the Lord, acting out experiences, not doing my hair, talking to myself, singing and dancing. How do you like to have fun?

Challenge: I dare you to have a blast today. ;)
Word of the day: Happiness

I love you,
Dreamer Di

I think you're beautiful. :)

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Change and what we willing to sacrifice for it?

The fire burnt hot, but the experience was one to remember. I can almost see steam coming from my body, processing everything that I experienced. The stretch spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically was more than I ever expected.

Before I left on my trip across Europe I decided that I really wanted to dedicate this trip to changing/refining my mindsets, to truth. It would be the perfect set up, being removed from every comfort zone and away from every familiar influence of thought. Stepping completely into the Lords learning zone. Just me, Him, and my mindsets, true or false. I decided to jump for it.

I did not know what to expect, for I had never completely jumped like that before, into the complete unknown. This trip was more than leisure, it was more than seeing the world, I was looking for change.

Have you ever wanted something so bad you were willing to do anything to get there? This was the point I was at when I finally left February 29th, 2012, got on the plane for my first flight to Chicago, which then left to London.

As I sat there, alone, in the Phoenix airport, ready to board the plane to Chicago, my fears started to arise. My strongest emotion was "What the hell am I doing?" as I looked around at so many people around me, realizing that I was now completely on my own. I was seriously tempted to turn around and go home. 

I cried more in the first two weeks of the trip than I ever had in my life. Serious moments of stretching and pain. I have never prayed so much in my life. There were so many beautiful moments during the trip, I just never expected to be that hard.

I'm pretty sure, this decision and adventure has taught me more than  any one experience I have ever had. It has definitely changed me.

I will soon be up off the floor, wipe off the dust and continue on. But as for now, I must take a moment to breathe.

-Dreamer Di

I will write more of what I learned tomorrow.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Hard knocks of Traveling

Well, my trip was a success. I went to Europe without a plan, learned a bunch of stuff, had my priorities straightened out, found what was beautiful in my life already and am pumped and motivated to continue to live more of my dreams.

Along with the life lessons I learned on this trip, there were such moments of joy and victory. I am so happy I was able to go see the countries I did, meet the people I met, and live wildly for a couple months. I am currently now at home and it is amazing to see my own transformation. I am slowly beginning to see what has changed and how I am different.

I went on this trip to grow. I knew this was going to be hard, but I had no idea HOW hard it would be. There were moments when I wanted to throw in the towel and everything I have worked for. Moments when I cried harder than I ever had, out of pain, stretching and refinement. Moments when I wanted to quit and sell out. But I didn't, I stuck it through right til the end.

See not having a plan, I obviously didn't know what to plan for exactly. Including finances, so the money I had saved was used quickly for expenses I never knew existed. For part of the reason I am home is the money ran out, and as of yesterday on my 'return to the states date' I had $1.37 in my account. hahaha crazy ay? nothing like traveling Europe til you run out of money!! But now I have learned, what to do, what not to do. I learned through the hard knocks, not from a book. I learned the cold hard truth of reality on this trip and how to be COMPLETELY self reliant, more than I ever had. I had thought I did pretty well before but now I know how to prepare even more.

I felt things I have never felt before, stretched in areas that have always been so comfortable. I will tell you honestly, this trip was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but it was one of the best things I could have done. I learned more than I ever could have at a desk, in a book or anywhere else. Experiencing it myself brought so much wholeness and understanding.

I will go back, I will go explore the beautiful places I saw, and many more. I will continue my goal of being a world traveler and enjoying each moment, I just know, I will do it a lot differently, next time.

I dare you to be real,
Dreamer Di

Word of the day: Woah

Challenge: Push through the hard times, for you come out on the other side stronger and better than you ever were before. Dare to dream, even if it means going through hell and fire to reach the end. I promise it's worth it. I will explain more when more of the steam rolls of and my clothes aren't on fire anymore. ;) You'll do fine, just keep pressing through.