Design Your Life

I am focused on preparation today.

Over the past two years I have gained the skill of strategicly planning ahead. Making lists, refining priorities and doing as much possible, in the shortest amount if time.

It has become fun and a game for me. 

It is the best feeling to know you've literally done everything you can think of concerning an idea or experience.

Example: I am going on to a business conference to LA this weekend. (Danijohnson.com) I have planned my time, food, purpose, finances, clothes, priorities and resources. You name it, I've planned it.

I have written up goals to accomplish and what I want to bring home from the experience. 

I have a one page paper typed up to review each thing I've planned throughout the weekend. Now I just follow directions. Easy enough eh?

This isn't a vacation. This is a planned educational event. A place that I will leave different than I was before.

I expect a lot from myself and this experience this weekend.

I literally can't think of another thing I can plan for this weekend. Every minute is purposeful, whether it be for learning, business, relaxation or fun. It's planned and now I can flow in the structure.

Living my life by design and not by default,

Dreamer Di

Challenge: Set yourself up for success

Word: Yoga 

This is my food strategicly planned for the next 4 days. All complete balanced diet, calories counted, pre-portioned and tasty.  Boom baby ;)

The Storm Adventure ;)

Listen to this music as you read this post:

http://youtu.be/rXngtO8sSYY

You know, I was thinking. 

Pain has formed me more than anything I think I have ever done or experienced.

It has been pain that has helped me stretch, release and heal wounded muscles and body parts.

It has been pain that has made me sit up straight and have good posture.

It has been pain of circumstance that pushes me to change who I am and my surroundings.

It has been pain that gets me out of bed each morning, knowing there is more to life than how I am living.

It has been pain that has turned me to God often and strengthened our relationship.

It has been the pain of possibly losing my shot that has kept me going.

It has been the pain that kept me reaching out to love another.

Pain has helped me learn.

Pain can mold me.

I want to figure out a way to use the pain in my life for good and to learn from it.

Why does struggling make us grow?

I think it is an opportunity for us to make some choices: 

Are we going to continue, or are we not? 

Are we going to believe there is more beyond the pain or stay here?

Do we believe we are strong enough to fight?

The choices could be endless and specific for each person.

I am beginning to embrace pain and mold my life around it, in peace.

Peace comes from trusting God, even in the pain. That there is purpose and relief on the way.

We can't control our circumstances, but I do believe we can find peace along our journey.

Be strong through the storm,

Dreamer Di

Challenge: Hold on though the waves, wind and storm. Turn to God, you will make it though.

Challenge 2: What if we saw the storm as a grand adventure? :)

Words: Love you. <3

Let It Burn

I am shocked at the skills that are uncovering from my last two years of hell.

The crap has been burned, the ash and stubble is being wiped off and the end result is not what I expected.

It is way better than anything I could have thought of myself.

I'm excited to see where these new uncovered skills take me. They are hot off the press and ready to roll.

I am not afraid of them. 

Let it burn,

-Dreamer Di

Challenge: Accept correction, the outcome is worth every penny, tear and hardship paid.

Words: Strength and Power 

Don't Give Up

You know, I was watching this video today and the beginning, when the plane crashed, reminded of some thoughts I had the other day.

http://youtu.be/ZOy0YgUDwDg

You know how they say, "God won't test you above what you are able?" 

I believe that. 

But I also believe it gets pretty close. I've never been so close to loosing everything as I did this last November, 2013.

If I wouldn't have listened to God, humbled my heart and came to people for help, you wouldn't be hearing from me right now.

As scary as that sounds it was reality. 

This last two years I have had to fight with every ounce of strength, will power and determination to not quit on life, love, dreams, purpose, people, myself.

I did everything I could, but still little relief.

This last test burned hotter than ever. This was when I was tested if I would give up on God.

I was so angry with Him.  

I didn't understand His timing, purpose, and why I had struggled so intensely for the past two years.

I felt He had abandoned me and that His promises would never come true. 

And because of that, I chose to turn from Him for just a split second. 

In that second I was almost destroyed.

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In my last ditch effort, I turned to God once more, I broke, and He caught me.

Let me clarify, God is one of my bestest friends. He has been there for me and supported me through so many ups and downs, rebellions and victories.

And because of the relationship we've built, I turned back to Him. 

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You know how they say, "When you're struggling, it is because you're about to   breakthrough, something beautiful is about to happen, be promoted by God etc?"

I believe that. I am living proof of it.

I don't know what God refined out of me these last two years, but whatever it was, I'm glad it's gone.

I am happy, peaceful and have let go of unimportant things and details. I am enjoying the moment, preparing for the next, but not worrying about the future. 

Although these last two years were hard, I wouldn't trade them for the world. 

I have been praying for peace, joy and love for a long time. I didn't realize I needed some nasty things pulled out that blocked these beautiful gifts.

If I had given up I would have never experienced the beauty I am feeling now.

It is a miracle. It is a blessing.

God knew what He was doing. 

And He knows what He's doing now.

I'm so grateful for Him and the loved ones who supported me when I had no strength to fight or stand.

Don't be ashamed to ask for help. God and people want to help you.

You can do this.

Hold on,

Love Dreamer Di

Challenge: Let go of ego and pride and be loved

Word: Heart

The Only Thing

What's on my mind this morning:

The only person I'm competing with is myself.

The only person I am trying to impress is God.

The only way to accomplish anything is the make a plan and follow it.

The only way to be happy is to trust God in his plan for you.

The only way you know what plan is specificly yours to follow, ask God.

Love Dreamer Di

Challenge:

Ask God what you need to do, to succeed.

Words: Sunlight feels nice in the morning :)

Focus On Focusing

Today I am focusing on focusing.

Ironic ay?

Without focus I will not accomplish anything. 

I make plans, strategies and how to implement them. I work for hours on refining desires and priorities, but then let myself get distracted from them...

When I let one piece of my life overide another I become imbalanced. When things become exciting and results start happening, this is when, surprisingly, I get distracted the most. 

My success coach, Dani Johnson,at Danijohnson.com said "The worst part about success is a little bit." 

I am now seeing more of what she means. As I have started to see/taste results I have become imbalanced and lost my stance, which has killed my results too.

It is a learned skill to move consistently, instead of just by passion. It's the balance between consistency and passion that is needed. 

I'm at least aware of the imbalance and am actively working to straighten it out. I'm glad I caught it when I did.

This doesn't mean I'm going to change these habits without a fight. Change takes every ounce of fight you got.

I am pushing for consistency right now. I want that skill to be a part of my character, so I will work on it.

I have a routine, health plan and priorities thought out, now, just to follow them..

Grrrrrrrr,

-Dreamer Di

Challenge: Look at where consistency would bring you the greatest result, and be focused and consistent.

Word: carpet

Let It Go Dreamers

Hey Dreamers,

I am taking a lot of leaps in trusting right now.

I feel like I am floating through the air like a autumn leaf. I am letting go of expectations, titles and unimportant ideas. I feel I am actually enjoying the wind and riding it instead of fighting it. Such a beautiful thing to picture and feel.

I'm sure the wind has been blowing for years. I can imagine I was holding on to the fence with everything I had to resist getting blown away. 

I don't think I understood or have trusted the wind. Trusted that God can really take me and lead me.

It's not that I am passive and inactive as I let the wind blow me. It is a constant effort to let go when I'm directed, finish projects when assigned, destroying pride, choosing to change, and trusting when life's timing doesn't play out how I thought. Those are my actions when the wind blows.

Trust, movement and choice.

I feel like these last two years have beaten me down and burned hot. At times, I really feared my strength wasn't enough, and I would lose everything I had that was beautiful.  The burning and beating was for purpose. As I am coming out of it, I see what the creator was doing.

I don't know exactly what broke in me over this time, but all I know is. I am now open to letting people in and love me, I have surrendered to guidance and am willing to do whatever it takes to follow directions. I feel smaller than ever before, yet my power and light that is shining is more refined, focused and bright. My power comes from another strength, not my own. I have been broken in, like taming a wild mustang. Bridaling my passions and directing them.

You have no idea how many times I have been face first on the floor in tears to get to this point. Tears of release and healing. Tears of gratitude and joy. Tears of disappointment, tears of dire pain, tears of regret.

It has taken a lot of work to get to this point, of blowing in the wind.

I am still learning how to trust, but I have come farther than I ever thought I could.

I pray I can continue to enjoy the wind, let it move me, and refine me.

I pray you too can trust the wind and let it move you in peace.

Thank you for loving me on this journey dreamers,

Dreamer Di

Challenge: Find an unrealistic expectation you have given yourself and choose to let it go into the wind. You don't need it anymore. Be free.

Words: I love my little dog, curled up on my lap as I write this. :) <3