Thursday, February 20, 2014

Building A Team

I have been working on a youth program for a couple years now. The main focus is to restore hope back into our younger generation and prevent suicide physically as well as emotionally, mental and spiritually. The goal is to get into schools for assemblies. Each presentation will include humor, inspiration and music.

Today I am putting a presentation together to present the idea to a group of people.

I am starting a non-profit and need a handful of dedicated team members to build this. During this meeting I will present the details and will carefully interview each candidate. I may invite a lot of people, but I am expecting a small handful to have the heart, dedication and qualifications to work on our team. I am excited to work with them.

I am excited to be moving it forward. It has been a long process, and I am relieved to see if blossoming.

I have no idea how to build a team, non-profit, or lead a group of people in this manner, but I will do the best I can.

This has been on my heart for so many years, and it is time to bring it to the table.

I am going to need all the help I can get.

Dreamer Di

Challenge: Recruit people to help you

Words: Sticky note

I Don't Care If You Read This

Can I be honest with you? I really don't like sharing my life with anyone. I want to just live in my happy little bubble, create magnificent things and enjoy the special people in my life.

I've continued to have a pressing force in the back of my mind and heart that I am to share. Share what I am doing, how I think, beleive, and plans I am moving towards. 

I don't like the idea one bit, but I will do the best I can to share.

It's interesting that something you feel you are suppose to do, is the thing you hate most. Why does it have to be that way?

I do not like to be in the limelight or have light shown on what I'm doing. I repulse the idea actually. I have ran and hid from this responsibility for years, but it has now cornered me. I will give you all I can. It is going to take work, humility and practice, but I will share.

To be honest, if you like what I share or not, I don't care. I can't care. It's hard enough laying your life out a silver platter for the world to see, so I can't care what results, praise or hate comes from it.

I am moving out of fear of my soul being destroyed, if I do not move.

I hope that one day that energy will be transferred to wanting to help people out of love and not out of duty.

Love me or hate me,
My Name is Dreamer Di

Challenge: Do what you are called to do

Word: Submit

Monday, February 10, 2014

Get 'Er Done

To gain more, you first have to cut back.

You cut back on spending. Cut back on specific food and calories. Cut back "time waster" things. Cut back on physical belongings around you. Cut back on people that don't uplift you. Cut back on too many commitments, etc.

It's literally bridling every passion and pull.

Having the discipline to eat the right foods, budget your money, spend quality time with the people most important, saying no to unfruitful yet time filling opportunities takes immense focus.

Disconnecting from mindsets of "Have to haves" "I'm suppose to be here" and "This is how it goes" is challenging.

I am a happy person. I experience a lot of peace, see blessings throughout my life and feel the love of God often. I have beautiful supportive purposeful relationships and am very blessed.

I could pretend that my life is perfect and without challenges, but that would not be telling you the truth.

I work very hard for what I have. I consistently, and weekly, sow into each individual relationship important to me. Sometimes the relationship has been one sided, and has taken years for some to begin to return the same love given, but the fruit is growing. This isn't always easy and takes time. Eating organic, gluten-free and refined sugar free on a $25 budget a week is not easy either. It takes a lot of thought, strategic meal planning and compromising desires, but it is possible, and I am doing it. It is not easy to donate most of what I own to create space and energy to create at a higher rate than before. It is not easy to focus, motivate myself, work from home, be in complete control of my schedule, and discipline my time. It is not easy to stare my weaknesses in the face and go after them instead of run. This is painful and not easy, but I have become a better person everyday by the emotional, mental and spiritual work done.

Each one of these things takes intense work, focus and faith to believe they are possible. That the work now, will pay off later.

I am feeling the pain of lack today.

I create these situations myself, and on purpose. The lack I am feeling today is disconnecting from what I once felt was important and defined me. It is time to move on from these things. In these moments I have to be gentle and kind to myself. Walking myself through a process of understanding, as if I was a child. Explaining to myself that I am worth it, loved, and the cutting away is for purpose.

I really do believe that refining you, your area, your interests, your ideas, your time= beauty in the end.

The seeds have been planted and I will continue to nurture each of these "plants" and desires. Fruit will show its face when the season comes. 

Love Dreamer Di

Challenge: If you are working towards something, don't see how its possible or if the work is worth it, keep going. I really do believe there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Words: Bumble Bee :)

Sunday, February 9, 2014

I Can Feel It

My eyes have been opened that I have hid for so many years.

All I know is, since I cleared my entire room, and got rid of a lot of connected emotional baggage in the last two days, I am free. 

My gifts are shining, unashamed. For example, last night I expressed mightily through dance and boldly felt every beat. 

I am amazed by what I am experiencing. It has only been one day since the finish of my cleansing, and things are blooming beautifully.

I can feel it. 

My offering of release worked.

You know what I realize. People are either going to love or hate you. 

Fully express anyway. 

I can't cater to each persons thoughts, feelings or misunderstandings.

That is not my job or problem.

But what I can do is express what I have, and who I am.

I will continue to do so.

I am also imperfect, and gosh it feels good to accept that.

Love Dreamer Di

Challenge: Let go so you can love yourself, your life and your gifting.

Words: Freedom Warrior

Do me a favor? I would really like to connect with more dreamers who also desire freedom of self-expression. Please share the blog posts you enjoy so your friends may connect with us here. Thanks. ;)

Friday, February 7, 2014

I Am Not A Painter

I am defining who I am in this moment.

I decided that I was going to go through my room and get rid of anything that does not align with my truth, who I am, and where I'm going.

It's interesting, I am defining who I am by declaring what I am not. I realized this as I decided to get rid on hundreds of dollars of painting supplies today. I realized, I don't want to paint, I don't ever want to and I don't want to keep this anymore. I am not a painter.

Instead of there being a loose end of "am I a painter?" The answer is no. I just decided. This is not how I want to use my creative energy. I jumped into painting head first, tried it.... It's not for me. I'm letting it go.

I believe that I am letting go of emotional ties to the past while I do this. Holding onto things because they cost me money, a new hobby I tried and didn't stick with, clothes that one day I might like, a gift because someone gave it to me, things I held on to "just in case."

It's all going.

Realizing that giving away an item is not taking away from the moment, experience or relationship, but giving me room now to enhance what is important.

I am done wasting space, energy, thought, creativity and more.

I am done with it.

I even am burning my vision board I made in 2008. Those things were all great goals then, and I accomplished a ton of them, but I'm through with just having dreams on a board. I want reality. No wishing, hoping and praying will ever be enough without doing the action it takes to get there.

I have had a lot of excuses, a lot of fears, a lot of stupid things I clung to and I still have a lot more work. But I have to let them go to succeed.

Letting go of false identity "stuff" will assist in letting go of things mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

I want the RAW refined truth of who I am, my gifts and what I'm here on earth for.

I get rid of all this stuff in appreciation and peace, for this all has been part of my journey. Every hobby tested, every style tried, every note, writing and book read, has led me to who and where I am now. I am proud of my journey. But 90% of what surrounds me, does not serve me anymore.

I willingly and lovingly release it.

I invite you to let go of what does not serve you either. 

To Freedom,
Love Dreamer Di

Challenge: start small, go through your closet and throw out what you don't like. Then move on to another section.

Word: Clearing

Here is just part of what I have released in the last 48hours. All my decorations, tons of accessories, clothes, books, furniture and much more. Bye bye:)