Monday, October 7, 2013

New Chapter

My name is Diana Flammer. In my teenage years I found myself lost in a whirlwind of depression, substance abuse, with a lack of direction. I realized one day that I didn’t know who I was, what I loved or what made me happy.


After a lot of self-searching I found myself doing what I loved. I went for everything I loved in full force.


The problem was, I lacked the skills necessary to make these goals successful. I ran faster than I had strength, which brought me to a nervous breakdown mid February 2012.


Unfortunately, I had a dream trip scheduled February 29th, to travel all over Europe and went, even though it probably was not the wisest decision.


Not only did the nervous breakdown hit me at a critical point, but the next two months solidified and exposed every area I had weakness and lacked skill. This rocked my world HARD.


I am not the same person I was before. I was so full of hope, faith and an abundance of enthusiasm. I have been searching for these treasures, I believe they are still in me somewhere.


Since this experience I have been scrambling for my mind to function. I’ve been able to take care of essentials, and have those bases covered, but when it came down to anything bigger than my daily takes, I wouldn’t touch it with a stick. I remember when I came back from my trip I said, “Forget learning Spanish, forget being an author, forget traveling the world, forget going into business and forget dreaming in general. If dreaming is this hard, I want nothing to do with it.” I shut the book of dreams I had opened in my mind. My soul died that day.


Love Dreamer Di


Challenge: Have you let your dreams die?


Word: Valentine




  1. Hey love. That Europe trip kind of killed us both. I don't regret it though, because I think it helped us overcome some fears, and it showed us (very obviously) what we need to work on and where our weaknesses were. That trip changed us! I loved and hated it like you did. :) I'm happy to see you are gaining the skills to make your dreams happen. I'm trying to do the same. What are you doing to gain the skills?

    1. Teddy a lot of it has been talking with God a lot. Figuring out what I need to focus most on. Dani training and motivational videos are helping a lot too. Sorry the trip was hard for you as well! Let's help each other:)

  2. Dear Diana, I do not know what it is like to have gone through what you have, but all I know is, RISE. Get up and dream again. All it takes is a plan.

    Love, Lisa -Believe you were made for for more than just a mere existence.

  3. Dear Diana,

    Can I just say I love your blog? It's so inspiring for me and I love hearing about your story and life. I have let my dreams die before in the past. It was probably the worst decision I could have made. But I'm grateful The Lord woke me up and gave me a talking to. I'm so grateful you are going for your dreams now with all your heart. Keep it up girl. You are an inspiration and I'm grateful I know you :)

    1. Hi Juliet,
      Thank you so much for responding. I'll get better at checking my posts:)

      Thank you for your encouragement and sharing your story as well. May we strive to work together to dream:)