To be straight up with you, this trip has not been what I expected. It is hard, long, stressful, and a TON of work. Teddy and I both have been wondering when the "refining process" the "stretching period" the "I'm out of my comfort zone but now I'm ok" will pass.
From having to find our way around city streets where we do not speak the same language, maps the size of a car to try to find the right direction, carrying all our things with us and so many logistics etc. It literally has stretched us to the core.
The Lord told us we could dream, we belived Him and jumped. I just don't know how much more we can give. We left everything we had, quit our jobs, left all structure, left eveything comfortable, everything we loved, and took a leap of faith. We thought that the actual leap would be the hardest part, but the stress and hard times have continued.
Gosh, was all this worth it? I could have stayed home and found another way to feel like this, without having so many pieces to put back together when I return.
I am begining to wonder if all this work is worth it. I thought all my work before this trip would be enough to "pay and effort" for the fun and adventure I wanted. I have been out here 43 days. How long will it take?
I have wanted to travel since a child. I have wanted to explore the world and different cultures. I have wanted to live my dreams to also show you you can too. But at the moment my experience of dreaming isn't a positive note. At the moment I can not be an advocate for dreaming. I am hoping this outlook with change.
This isn't what I bargined for.
Words of the day/Challenge: Can you please pray for Teddy and Mine enjoyment while on this trip? We have worked so hard to be here, doing what we have always dreamed. We would appreciate your help.
Love Dreamer Di